“Ok, sooo start over, but from the beginning. Just exactly how it is.
“ I told you already exactly…”
“Yeah, you have, but you never, ever EVER tell it in linear order.”
“You always say lin..”
“I mean, you always fill in a detail way later, way after the accident, and then you start talking about what happened that day. It’s like a….what is it?” he turns to Marisol.

Marisol was fiddling with the papers on the love seat. Little green buds dotted her skirt. She raised her right hand and gestured to the air.
“Like, like choppy. Some kind of David Lynch daydream except as not as cool and nobody cares.” She licked the paper. “And you’ll never finish it.”
He waved his hand at her as if to say no way but he sipped his beer and didn’t continue the story.
“Forget it, tell it later, let’s get drunk first.” Jack said walking over to get a beer from the fridge.
David chimed back in, “You know I have that acid in my pocket too.”
Jack studied the fridge for a second before deciding which brand he wanted. They had brought so much beer for such a short weekend and small party. Hedonistic.
“I think we should wait,” he said. “Just a little bit longer.”

“What are you waiting for?” Marisol got up from the couch, forgetting her previous project. She wrapped her hands around his waist and rested her head on his shoulder.
“We’re waiting to cut the dose. I thought Marco was coming. Elise for sure.”
“Just do it, dude let’s do it. It’s still early and it lasts for hours. It’s already 6:30.” David repeated, motioning to his phone.
“Yeah, but…”
“No one else is coming, right?”

He walked over to the both of them and held his phone up to Jack’s face to show him the weather forecast. FLASH FLOOD WARNING in black bold letters. “The storm is getting worse and it’s a long drive. No one’s coming all the way to the trail to split two hits of acid among like seven people.”

Jack opened the bottle with his keychain, nodding to himself. Marisol held his waist tight, sort of purring next to him. David turned to glance at Lilian but she was completely checked out.

“Are you even getting service here?”
Stunned, she lowered her hand and looked at him.
“I was just playing the card game.”
David nodded, masking his resentment.

Not just at her aloofness but having ever left Milah to begin with and for having invited Lilian on this trip or for ever asking what she was doing on her phone. They held eye contact briefly before she went back to her phone.  Jack and Marisol were whispering when David turned his attention back to them. Fuck this.

“Ok, I’m cutting it. Half a dose each.”

He walked past the couple to grab scissors from the counter. He had placed them earlier when he tried to cut it at three.

“Let’s do it now, otherwise, we will be up all night.”

He had three tabs total. He pulled two out now and cut them both in half, easy with precision. Not even glancing back at his girlfriend, he remarked, “Lilian, you can sit this one out if you want.”

Lilian tucked a strand of wispy dirty blonde hair behind her hair and stared towards the kitchen, still entranced with the graphics from her phone. Mouse. She blinked and everyone stared back at her. Jack already had his hand out and Marisol was walking back to the love seat to return to rolling the joint.

“Ummm,” she began, clutching the phone but also letting it fall towards her thigh so she wasn’t looking at it.

David and Jack were peeling back the paper and sticking out their tongues. Marisol was back to spreading the flowers over the paper. Salome was marked by indecision as a rule.

“You don’t have to,” Jack smiled, warmth radiating.

David turned to face the other direction so she didn’t see his visible irritation.  She nodded. Marisol glanced at her and smiled.

“Do you smoke?”
“Sometimes,” she dropped the phone and started running her fingers through her hair with both hands. “Tonight probably.” She glanced at David. “Not the acid though.”

David turned completely around to face her, stuck his tongue out and dropped the paper beneath his tongue. Spiteful, he snapped his mouth shut like a reptile, a crocodile. To the room, it appeared they knew their problems but they didn’t. They both carried distractions like moats blocking passage or transcendence of any real conversation between them. It had been like this. It would probably remain like this. Jack had also stuck his piece under his tongue.


She hopped up letting her high, dark ponytail swing behind her as she galloped towards them. Letting her fingers tickle his abdomen first, she leaned over to kiss him as David watched. The room was full of bitter. Outside the first loud thunder cracked.

“It begins,” Marisol said cheerily and stuck her tab under her tongue.

Lilian and the gang were separated by a kitchen island. The three of them talked amongst themselves and she walked to one of the bedrooms. Tiptoed, actually. She made herself useful somewhere else unpacking David’s suitcase. An act of gratitude or fear, it was unclear but she was the one that heard the rap on the door. It was the back screen door. She was the one that paused as she lifted out a pair of cargo pants. She was the one that laid them flat on the bed, walked out the door and she was the one that saw a hooded woman through the window. She was the one that opened the door without making a sound to see her, drenched and shaking and she was the one that said, “Please come in” and watched the woman traipse mud across the welcome mat onto the hardwood floors.


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