“Your name was Dana,” I say to the floor. “I remember being upset by the plainness of the names; jennifer, I think, the boy probably a Michael, dana.”
I wasn’t sure if I was right about this, anything, any thought I’d ever had, immured with delusion and trouble and negative vibes.
“I’m hungry all the time.”
want

 

verb

1. have a desire to possess or do (something); wish for.
   “I want an apple”

 

I wanted an apple. Apples were my favorite I told someone once. I didn’t even know if that was true but they were plentiful, easy to eat on the go and not the worst thing. I am not the worst thing, didn’t do the worst things, didn’t eat the worst things just wanted.

 

want

 

verb
2. ought, should, or need to do something.

“you don’t want to believe everything you hear”

 

I ought to try harder.
“Your name was Dana.”
I ought to remember.
“You died in a fire in the house next door to me when you were three.”
I ought to change things.
“You held your breath for as long as you could.”
I ought to protect.
“I held my breath too.”

“the act of naming things”