it’s not sympathy I’m asking
for but an understanding
you can’t possibly imagine
unless you live it.
we are born with it:
the constant want,

desire to be both content
and normal, but also elevated
in euphoria even while
grocery shopping.
feeling a tingle as you
palm the tomato,

yes, yes
tonight will be excellent.

1.

palm the packet in your pocket
but you can always make it better.

2.