
“And here was America, neon lit and dusty. And here are my social anxieties.”—Ariel gore
“We enter this evening as we enter a quartet
Listening again for its particular note
The interval where all seems possible,
Order within time when action is suspended
And we are pure in heart, perfect in will.
We enter the evening whole and well-defended
But at the quick of self, intense detachment
That is a point of burning far from passion––
And this, we know, is what we always meant
And even love must learn it in some fashion,
To move like formal music through the heart,
To be achieved like some high difficult art.
We enter the evening as we enter a quartet
Listening again for its particular note
Which is your note perhaps, your special gift,
A detached joy that flowers and makes bloom
The longest silence in the silent room––
And there would be no music if you left.”
–Evening Music, May Sarton
“What is in your heart? You glow.”
–May Sarton
I spent a year begging God for reality and this has all been a giant defense to vulnerability. it’s always the same poem:
I’m hurting.
09/14/2018


