I want to insure my life suddenly. I want to insure the rest of my years.  I got up suddenly. That’s how I always get up anyway but I got up to end the bath ritual. I toweled myself without thought, quickly and ran back to the bedroom. I wanted to wear my favorite shirt: a blue velvet peacock transparent thing and underwear that made me feel unrestricted but pretty.  these transparent black boy-cut shorts with white stitching on the front. both outfits see through and the top loose: long sleeves and flowing. I just got under the covers. needing the weight. taking the pressure. humbled. careful. reorganizing thoughts as they trickled down reorganizing time. there is no time. reorganizing structures. plainly accepting while also scrutinizing my reactions to this:

I want to burn everything down. I wanted to remove every item from my house and then maybe torch the house. I wanted everything gone.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

Blog at WordPress.com.

Up ↑

%d bloggers like this: